Things we don't say

 

things we don’t say

Chapter one

Feeling like crap thank god it’s Saturday.Sunday, it would munt me for work. Mum’s back home from up north with her new boyfriend. He seems okay. Why she didn’t stay with Dad, I don’t know; one shitshow after another ever since. Could be another hard night tonite; Michele wants to hook me up with some guy. Friend of a friend, her friend. That last one was a train crash. Didn’t know what to say. Rarely am I lost for words. If the bitch short changes me again, I will kill her. Last-minute change of plans, I’m so excited; the wonder girls got given two tickets for voomfest and the mad bitch wants me to go with her. I can’t wait; fucking PJ Harvey, my god I can’t believe it. Trip; driver’s licence, money, phone, headphones, glasses, tickets. Don’t forget Michael’s phone number and email. Make sure in contacts. Got offered a good deal on a car would be good for summer. Should be able to pick up the gear be in Fat city by end of next week. Only two days until boogie time, I can’t wait to drop some acid. Hope there’s some nice boys. Must get that tent if we going to host qq boys all week. I’m such a hoebag. It will be fun for us three together. Might flag the boys, do it for ourselves. Ages since we had a proper sesh; we could hotbox the tent. I need to make the most of my last free kiwi summer. This time next year I will sit inside on a London winter. I can’t wait.

She went into town this morning; a lot of people arriving already. The backpackers was full up in some people look like that stick out overnight the bus starts running this morning taking people after the sign out to the site. I'm looking forward to having time off so I can work at the festival. In town this morning a lot of people arriving already and is another day to go before it starts we were flat out all day and sold out of stuff by 4 the coffee machine broke down poor thing it was overheating even the hardware store was full of people.
I went into the club rooms after work to check the gear for all pretty shiny and you should be really helpful and there's even drug testing kits which is should make my life a lot easier I spoke to Doug and I will drive the tent out and set it up and then we'll do it in shifts things we don't say things we don't say the town was busy

I was still trying to contact him to score but it's phone was off he rang me back later in the day and said he'd meet me there going to be hard to find it amongst all those people but will give it a go shouldn't be that difficult I went back home and got a good night's sleep mum was really tired and we both had an early night I wanted to tell her I love her but for some reason I didn't. I must make sure I do tell her before I go out to the festival in the morning.

Doug pick me up about and we drove out to the festival site and put the tent up even at that time there was heaps of people coming through the gates the music was kicking off at 11 and lots of people wanted to be up the front. We had our first flake out at about 10 but I was just dehydration and after we filled him up with some water he recovered and went on his way it's hard to tell the tricky situations with a Samoan is seriously ill or just tired hungover and needing a drink of water

I saw mum in the morning at the kitchen table as I heard it out the back door damn I said as I was walking down the path I forgot again to tell her I love her I went into town first and got some cash out of the ATM $200 Brian said he had something texted me to say he had something a lot stronger for me not sure what you mean but it sounded wrong thing grab some Molly perhaps some Molly anyway I called the bus out to the festival and eventually I found them just buy one of the small stages hi how are you I'm good I'm going did you want to buy some yeah I've got $200 he passed me a small bag was templates in it what's tablets Anna he said these are make you happy have a good time I want it over to the food stores as the other girls we're gonna meet me there there was masses of people

Mum rang me at lunch time to see how I was getting on things are pretty good pretty slow haven't had any real emergencies yet but things will certainly hot up later in the day she said well look after yourself because I will I love you mum I love you too see you possibly do you think you'll be there all night while definitely up to midnight and it just depends how things are going we might be really busy with people or we might just finished up and come back home OK darling I'll leave it with your capable hands you're doing such a fun job for people yeah I love it mum I love it it makes me feel like I'm really achieving something ok love you catch you later

I finally found my friends and woohoo they had some boys with them one of them was really hot I really like to look at them so I dropped in my so I split a Molly half of them we had a big ten we had a big tent and I had a small tin it was really hurly in the day but it was still coming on to me quite hard and I must say I didn't really mind it was funI kind of forgot about the music I was tripping so hard and my friends for a while or maybe a couple of hours every to get down to it in the end and we did get down to it in the end he was rather nice thank God I taking the pill